In the last couple of months I've went from caring too much and taking everything way too seriously to caring too little and becoming Loki for a while (I did what I wanted, without the homicidal tendencies).
Get out of my head Tom!!!
Oh, yes. New attitude.
I've realized something about myself. I'm one tough cookie (this time). In the midst of all the craziness, I have never given up. Sure, I had bad days, but I knew that I wasn't throwing everything away when I ate that entire bag of potato chips. I knew that I was having a moment of weakness, not a moment of failure. Sure, I lost and gained the same 7 pounds a few times in the past month and a half, but the point is I still was trying.
I have a perfect example of the progress of my acumen in regards to weight loss...
While on the treadmill, I have the urge to run. Like, I actually run. It may be slower than a snail on ketomine, but I run. I was even walking around my work the other day, and just wanted to start running... The point being that I don't run. I've never in my life felt the
urge to run. I swear I didn't have a fight or flight response, I had a "eh" response.
"Oh no that big scary thing is chasing me?!? Eh, it was a good life with so much yummy chocolate... "
But now I find myself actually enjoying exercise, and enjoying running. I ran on the treadmill for 5 minutes straight this week. And I felt great afterwards. I didn't feel like I was going to fall over dead due to lack of breathing ability. This is crazy to me. Progress!!
Speaking of progress...
(insert trumpet fanfare here)
Highest Weight: 378 lbs
Current Weight: 317 lbs
I have to date lost a total of 61 lbs. I'm super excited about it. Like super duper I can't even tell you how excited about it I am. It's also super encouraging.
I think I'm beginning to find balance. I know what I need to eat and how much I need to work to keep on keeping on. I also know that it's okay to have a maple persian donut once in a while....
|hehehe.... Cant talk about donuts and not show Homer...|
Hey, I'm finally getting the hang of this long term weight loss stuff...